Height of chaos

Ok first the beginning of the week was itself very shitty.......I had missed a project appointment. I am also having a very difficult time juggling between two projects. Personal life also doesn't seem at balance.....and today again I really can't figure out how it happened....misinterpreting an appointment. Feel like things are terribly wrong.......each day is seeming to be a big battle. I am no asking for highs but at least everything has got to be normal at least on some days. This is work life and mistakes can become really costly,especially when they appear obvious in the eyes of your boss. Cant figure out how I can be so careless.....Is everyone except me on high alert...do I lack concentration. Many times I feel I do not read things and listen things carefully. I made it in red so that its obvious to be. I also have fear of asking questions but I have to overcome this.......its better now than after few years....have to constantly say this........My confidence in doing stuff.....always low.......F***.......I get things as simple as opening a door or tap wrong......can u believe that I took almost half hour to fill my project hours. Constantly totaling like a small kid and still asking myself if it was rite....lyf can't be like this......am making myself miserable each day... ...have to somehow overcome my problems........else i fear darwin's theory will operate and operate fast.............maybe im cribbing lot...at least i don't disturb anyone